Monday, October 25, 2010

Suffocation

one night i woke up questioning my dream wondering if it had anything to do with my life. I had a dream where i had just meat this guy at a party. we were talking the whole night and had a great time but towards the end of the dream everything started to turn dark and i started to fell strangled and suffocated. i couldnt really breathe and the room no longer was a room but i was locked inside of a deep hole and i couldnt get out. this guy had trapped me inside and i was attempting to climb out pulling on the roots hoping that it would support my weight. the roots snapped and i started falling until i woke up. this dream has alot of meaning to me because i have just met a new guy that i am some what interested in but i feel like everything is moving so fast and that im starting to drown in something that i dont even want, or am even ready for. i didnt come to college to find a boyfriend im here to learn and discover myself and i feel as though he is holding me back from my personal growth. i really do like him but i feel like timing is everything and maybe this isnt the right time. so maybe my subconscious is trying to tell me to follow your gut even if its not logical, and ask yourself, what do you really want? and is he included?

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