halloween

for the past week i have been extremely excited about halloween because its my favorite holiday. me and my friends have been getting prepared and started making our costumes which is making me even more excited. so the other night i had a dream that it was halloween night and me and some friends were over at a place that was supose to be the plaza but didnt really look anything like it. we were all dressed up in out costumes but at one point my friend tried to take off his mask and he couldnt. we had all become what we were dressed up as. i was an indian and i couldnt escape my costume. we were all freaked out because we were no longer oursleves but we were these weird versions of someone else. we continued with our night trying to figure out how to get rid of our costumes. but soon we all started to enjoy being someone else and were actually starting to act and fully become our costumes being lost in halloween. then the sun started to come up and we were hoping that when the next day came we would all be back to normal but we werent. we all began to freak out agian and then i woke up. im still really excited for halloween i just hope that this dream is not illuding to a weird mystical night. i just want to have fun!

Suffocation

one night i woke up questioning my dream wondering if it had anything to do with my life. I had a dream where i had just meat this guy at a party. we were talking the whole night and had a great time but towards the end of the dream everything started to turn dark and i started to fell strangled and suffocated. i couldnt really breathe and the room no longer was a room but i was locked inside of a deep hole and i couldnt get out. this guy had trapped me inside and i was attempting to climb out pulling on the roots hoping that it would support my weight. the roots snapped and i started falling until i woke up. this dream has alot of meaning to me because i have just met a new guy that i am some what interested in but i feel like everything is moving so fast and that im starting to drown in something that i dont even want, or am even ready for. i didnt come to college to find a boyfriend im here to learn and discover myself and i feel as though he is holding me back from my personal growth. i really do like him but i feel like timing is everything and maybe this isnt the right time. so maybe my subconscious is trying to tell me to follow your gut even if its not logical, and ask yourself, what do you really want? and is he included?

Dream Dog

The other night I wake up thinking that I just got a new puppy. A few minutes later I realize that it was only dream which was somewhat devastating. During the dream I was just going through my day when someone walked up to me saying that they were unable to keep this puppy and handed it off to me. I was so happy to have gotten this dog. It was the cutest little black lab puppy that I have ever seen. I took this dog with me everywhere and loved it so much. The only issue was that I still lived in the dorms which did not provide enough space for this active puppy. In my dream I tried several ways to make this situation work. I had tried to bring in patches of grass for the puppy to use as a bathroom, i bought toys and made the whole room puppy proof. But as the dream went on the idea of having a puppy living in the dorm was not ideal, especially for the puppy. There just was not enough room for him to play and live like a normal dog. I then walked out of my room with the puppy in hand and repeated the same thing that had happened earlier. I found someone and told them that I could not care for the puppy while living in the dorms and hesitantly gave away the precious little dog. For the next couple days after I had that dream I continued to see puppies everywhere I went. Each time I saw a puppy it reminded me of the dog in my dreams, and made me want one so bad but then I remembered how unrealistic it was to raise a dog in a single room. I guess that dream was just forcing  me to see that I already have enough on my plate and that adding a puppy is not a good idea.

The Winnings

Over the weekend I was surrounded by new experiences, new people and new surrounding. I took a bus up to Crescent City to visit a friend and go to a surf competition. While i was up there, I had a strange epiphany. I realized that I now consider Acrcata as my home. I have really become accustom  to my life here and missing home less and less each day. One night, I had a dream that possibly alludes to my future? A friend and I were down in the plaza and for some reason we were both ecstatic. We were so happy and excited but at first I had no clue to why we were feeling this way. Then my friend showed me a lottery ticket that we had bought and on it  in huge letters was WIN. We had both won the lottery and had decided to buy a house right here in Arcata and set our roots down. Although not much happened in this dream, it is quite symbolic to me. I feel like this dream shows that I could possibly want to live here for sometime, or that I want to move out of the dorms. Either way, I fell a little discontent with where I am currently living, but at the same time I really enjoy this town. It is a definite change from Long Beach and Im really enjoying the difference.